Being naked in the woods or the ocean is a pleasure I've indulged in over the years. Mostly alone. ...intense erotic pleasure I experienced primarily as a form of yearning or longing without resolution. To imagine myself naked in the forest or the ocean or to actually be there is highly arousing and tantalizing.
Prior to coming out as trans I felt repulsed at my body in these circumstances, I felt clearly in my mind that my masculine sex and features were at odds with the exposure I wanted to feel in the forest or sea. Very shortly prior to coming out I imagined that apart from any kind of social transition or any other gender therapy, I would be happier in the woods if I at least had no penis; I would be happier still if I was a woman in the woods. Early in transition, when going for walks in the woods past Alton, I recalled these thoughts. It comforted me.
My story Nymphoria is about the gender euphoria I experience by imagining myself as a nymph; a dryad or neried.
I want to capture that erotic solitude between myself and these two aspects of nature.